I wanted to let you all know why I have been away for the last few days. I am going to be very blunt and straight forward in order to try to help and inform you all who may have children. Please read this for your families.
We had gotten a call from the school two Wednesdays ago regarding Christian taking some unknown pills at school. When I arrived at the school, he had admitted to taking three or four “alleged” prescription pills that were given to him by another student. I took him straight to the doctor where he also admitted that he had been taking various pain medications on and off for the last 6-8 months. All of these prescription drugs had come from students in his middle school. However, the urine tests came back negative for such a medication. While in the ER, the counselor also uncovered the fact that Christian had wanted to kill himself on several occasions, but just couldn't go through with it. In the process of the interview, he also confessed to drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes, dipping tobacco, and trying marijuana a few times during the same period of time. She advised us to have him admitted into a local facility for evaluation, treatment, and therapy.
So Christian spent six days in a local rehab/treatment facility, and was treated for depression with suicidal tendencies. While he was there, we were only allowed to see him for only an hour every day. The first night we went to visitation was very hard, because he was coming off of all of the substances that he had been ingesting. But by day two we could already see drastic improvements; his complexion was clearing up, he seemed to be happier and more focused, and he could finally look us in the eyes when he spoke to us. We got to bring him home on Tuesday of this week (along with some daily medications), but he still has a long road ahead of him. He has to rebuild friendships that were damaged due to his decisions along with regaining the trust of his parents and other family members. The school is taking action by sending him before a Tribunal on Wednesday the 9th, and these three individuals have the power to determine the remainder of his eighth grade year.
He seems to be much better physically since he’s been home, but the mental and spiritual changes will be seen later along the way. It has been a long couple of weeks, but at least he is back home with us....one more day and he would have had his mother up there with him suffering from a mental breakdown! Chuck and I are still reeling from the whole situation....we never saw it coming. If it had happened his sixth or seventh grade year it would have been no shocker, but he had seemed to be a TOTALLY different child this year. He has been awesome in sports, his attitude had vastly improved, and his grades were even higher. It is still hard to believe that my baby was so sad that he thought taking his own life was the only answer. He will have be on his prescribed medications for quite a while, and he will be going to an after-care service for follow-up therapy for an indefinite amount of time.
Continue to pray for Christian, but also pray for the rest of our family during this time of healing and mending (especially his younger brother....he was absolutely devastated). It's not going to easy, but we are going to take it one day at a time. Thanks so much for checking on us, and I hate that I have to share such shocking and horrible news with you. I wish that I had some sage words to share, but the only things that I am certain of are the following: I am helpless to kiss all of the boo-boos away, and I can't keep my children from getting hurt. When it is all said and done, all I can do is love them and set boundaries for them in order to try to protect them. There are going to be choices that I cannot make for them, and consequences that I cannot take for them. I have to pray that they will be able to stand up and think for themselves when faced with the problems and temptations of this world.....and that really scares me to death.
Please love your children with all of your heart and might, and fight like hell to keep them safe!